Some Goals

I started out last calendar year with a few goals. 1) read 30 books by 2021, 2) make 39 paintings, 3) have the majority of the days in the year where I followed some good habits I would form (good eating, diet, exercise, chores, etc) and 4)n graduate in spring of 2021. Unfortunately the universe had other plans. With the shutdown, and stresses that surrounded it at work and school, on top of personal life struggles, I lost some motivation (as mentioned in previous blogs). I only read around 10-15 books (still pretty good, but I used to be a voracious reader, so I wanted to ignite my previous interest). I made 8-10 paintings, which was pretty good, but I was determined to make more. I only remembered my good habits about half the time (eating some junk food was unfortunately my coping strategy). The only thing I was actually winning at was getting the grades I needed to continue towards graduation.

So, on new years, as I may have mentioned I made these goals for 2022, and decided to be more determined. Overall I am in a better standing completing my goals this time around. I did indeed graduate (still waiting on my diploma....), and am working on completing the other goals I set out to do. And yes, there are times where I fall behind or forget. But I am learning to be less hard on myself.

The other thing that happen is I am completing goals I didn't even write down but have been in the back of my mind since I graduated high school (which seems like a life-time ago). I am slowly going through all the steps to become a freelance artist! I am passionate about all my creations and if I can make an honest living off that alone, I would be content.

The point of this blog isn't to brag, but more-so to remind myself when I have doubts or can only focus on the negatives and what is going wrong in my life, that there are many things going right. If I have the drive, I can make things happen! And please, try not to compare any of my perceived successes to your own. There will always be people more and less successful than oneself. Depending on your parameter for success where you're at could be a success or failure. Even though the actions don't change, depending on how you interpret them can greatly affect things. So try and objectively look at your actions and don't be too hard on yourself. Failure isn't actually so bad. It's necessary to success.

This blog was kind of a longer one, but I really wanted to remind myself things so that I can stay positive, even in the face of failure. Stay happy, healthy, and safe! See you next week, my Jellybeans.